Sunday, May 08, 2005

experience

I don't think I like the idea that my name can be searched for online and my blog will just pop up. It's more than just a little unnerving and I'm sure that there are a few people reading this now that didn't have access to it before. If you were not invited, I probably do not appreciate you. But I know that this is a less-than-private forum to articulate this stuff, and I respect your right to access public websites.

That aside, I did more than a few things on the weekend that I am not proud of. I still haven't completely decided what they mean, or how much of a hypocrite I have made myself. I'm glad I told my mother all about it though... but I am at the same time slightly disturbed by the way it felt slightly like a confession. I do feel marginally better about it now, though.

Lately I've been riding that thirst for knowledge. I'm so eager to start university, and read and read and devour everything I can get my hands on that will further my comprehension of life around and in me. I like it a lot, but I feel like it's been largely inspired by one influence.

Also: Apparently my moon sign is scorpio, not sagittarius. I'm sure it had been bothering you all.