good

What a song.

Time can take it's toll on the best of us
Look at you you're growing old, so young
Traffic lights blink at you in the evening
You tilt your head and turn it to the sun
Sometimes the TV is like a lover
Singing softly as you fall asleep
You wake up in the morning and it's still there
Adding up the things you'll never be

Alright, I can say what you want me to
Alright, I can do all the things you do
Alright, I'll make it all up for you
I'm still in love with you
I'm still in love with you

Time can take it's toll on the best of us
Look at you you're growing old, so young
Traffic lights blink at you in the evening
You tilt your head and turn it to the setting sun
You disembark the latest flight from paradise
You almost turn your ankle in the snow
You fall back into where you started
Make up words to songs you used to know

Alright, I can say what you want me to
Alright, I can do all the things you do
Alright, I'll make it all up for you
I'm still in love with you
I'm still in love with you

Kurt Cobain, he never had a chance you know
Incurable romantics never do
He held a flame I wasn't born to carry
I'll leave the dying young stuff up to you
You get back on the latest flight to paradise
I found out from a note taped to the door
I think I saw your airplane in the sky tonight
Through my window lying on the kitchen floor

Alright, I can say what you want me to
(I want more)
Alright, I can do all the things you do
(Give me more)
Alright, I'll make it all up for you
I'm still in love with you
I'm still in love with you
(I want more)

Alright, I'll say what you want me to
(Give me more)
Alright, I'll do all the things you do
(I want more from you)
Alright, I'll make it all up for you
I'm still in love with you
I'm still in love with you

I'm still in love with you

And then, a voice to pull me out of the lingering remnants of loneliness from that song:

tatoe donna ni kizutsuitemo
dore dake kizutsuku koto ni nattemo
dare ni mo boku wa tomerarenai

wazuka na hikari wo mitsukareba ii
ima ha taiyou agarenakutemo
'furidashita ame wa itsuka yamun da ne'

sou sa, kono ame wa itsuka yamun da ne

spinning

Alright, I need to slow it the hell down. I have been so actively pursuing all of this shit that I would have, maybe as short a time as a month ago, considered completely low and beneath what I thought were my moral standards. I could have easily done myself some severe injury on saturday night with the drinking and the smoking and the ingestion of painkillers, and I'm not so sure monday night was such a great idea either.

Bonus points for me.

Time to take a breath.