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Tuesday, February 14, 2006
heaven? what use is heaven
I don't get this, everytime it comes down to me having to study for some sort of big test I always cop out and just sit around. It's like... when it matters the most I just draw a blank in the motivation column and throw in the towel. I mean... I like Korean, I just don't like the class or the way it's taught. Oh well, I'm sure I'll squeeze by anyway.
This was my first Valentine's Day ever where I actually pondered the idea of being alone. It only lasted for about five minutes, mind, but I still felt like I was somehow letting myself down. Chalk another one up for Hallmark. It's not like I feel lonely especially? It was more of a just thinking about what I would be doing were I with someone... and I think it was mostly inspired by boredom.
My thoughts are so disorderly at the moment, I think it's mostly because I'm really tired and the Final Fantasy (owen pallett, not the video game) music in the background is disrupting me a bit. My theory is that there are two kinds of music, the kind that draws you in, and the kind that pours into you. And this is draw you in kind.
A movie everyone who is alive should see is 'What the F*** do we know?'. It's supposedly about quantum physics but it made me feel so much better about life in general. The same can sadly not be said for 'the constant gardener', which was also quite good but in a making you think about how fucked the world is kind of way.
Today's song of the night is cooling.
I don't get this, everytime it comes down to me having to study for some sort of big test I always cop out and just sit around. It's like... when it matters the most I just draw a blank in the motivation column and throw in the towel. I mean... I like Korean, I just don't like the class or the way it's taught. Oh well, I'm sure I'll squeeze by anyway.
This was my first Valentine's Day ever where I actually pondered the idea of being alone. It only lasted for about five minutes, mind, but I still felt like I was somehow letting myself down. Chalk another one up for Hallmark. It's not like I feel lonely especially? It was more of a just thinking about what I would be doing were I with someone... and I think it was mostly inspired by boredom.
My thoughts are so disorderly at the moment, I think it's mostly because I'm really tired and the Final Fantasy (owen pallett, not the video game) music in the background is disrupting me a bit. My theory is that there are two kinds of music, the kind that draws you in, and the kind that pours into you. And this is draw you in kind.
A movie everyone who is alive should see is 'What the F*** do we know?'. It's supposedly about quantum physics but it made me feel so much better about life in general. The same can sadly not be said for 'the constant gardener', which was also quite good but in a making you think about how fucked the world is kind of way.
Today's song of the night is cooling.
Monday, February 13, 2006
She with her honey hair
I have had a million tales to tell and words to weave but have for the most part been without time to spend (waste) blogging, but I did attempt it four times. Three times blogger was 'down for maintenance' and the fourth my computer crashed after I had been typing for a long time, so I stopped trying for a bit out of sheer frustration. It's so hard to get to that place where everything flows nicely, you know? And it's so rare that I've hit that spot and I'm near enough to the computer to make a difference. Oh well, spilt milk as they say.
So, the physical and uninteresting details, summarized nicely:
-going to the gym twice a week, feel great about it
-had a breakup, it was unpleasant
-acquired a hottub (not sure whether this is a compound word or not) which I worship as a deity
-saw an amazing broken social scene concert
I haven't decided yet whether I should just turn my brain into complete mental flow mode or try to pioneer some new and worthless argument transcribed into digital rambling. Either way I suppose it amounts to the same thing.
Today reminds me of 'Mother Revolution'. Just the tune feels right for the day.
Lucky me
I guessed the kind of man
that you would turn out to be
Now I wish that I'd been
wrong and then
I could remember
to breathe
And all along the Watchtower
the night horses and
the black mares
ready themselves for the outcome
for the strange times
upon us
But what you didn't count on
was another Mother of
a Mother Revolution
but what you didn't count on
was another Mother of
a Mother Revolution
you could've had me
you could've had me
you could've had me
Right there beside you
you could've had me boy
you could've had me yeah
you could've had me
Right there beside you
A wife on loan
in a cafe in old El Paso
Next I go to
Seven Gates and
my sister's Bass Bonanza
And all along her Watchtower
the night horses and
the black mares
steady themselves for the outcome
for the strange days
upon us
What you didn't count on
was another Mother of
a Mother Revolution
Hmm... ironically relevant.
Ok, so what's really been up lately is that I'm getting excited, excited for life, for school to be over, for summer, for japan, for experiences and emotions and friends and enemies and all that shit. And I'm hoping it might last for a little bit, at least until the sun starts coming out a bit more. Which isn't to say that I'm in a state.
I think I'm looking forward to summer because it will be my first living downtown, and it will be a reprieve for some creative time. I may even finish some paintings... may. No promises.
That's all for now. More to come.
I have had a million tales to tell and words to weave but have for the most part been without time to spend (waste) blogging, but I did attempt it four times. Three times blogger was 'down for maintenance' and the fourth my computer crashed after I had been typing for a long time, so I stopped trying for a bit out of sheer frustration. It's so hard to get to that place where everything flows nicely, you know? And it's so rare that I've hit that spot and I'm near enough to the computer to make a difference. Oh well, spilt milk as they say.
So, the physical and uninteresting details, summarized nicely:
-going to the gym twice a week, feel great about it
-had a breakup, it was unpleasant
-acquired a hottub (not sure whether this is a compound word or not) which I worship as a deity
-saw an amazing broken social scene concert
I haven't decided yet whether I should just turn my brain into complete mental flow mode or try to pioneer some new and worthless argument transcribed into digital rambling. Either way I suppose it amounts to the same thing.
Today reminds me of 'Mother Revolution'. Just the tune feels right for the day.
Lucky me
I guessed the kind of man
that you would turn out to be
Now I wish that I'd been
wrong and then
I could remember
to breathe
And all along the Watchtower
the night horses and
the black mares
ready themselves for the outcome
for the strange times
upon us
But what you didn't count on
was another Mother of
a Mother Revolution
but what you didn't count on
was another Mother of
a Mother Revolution
you could've had me
you could've had me
you could've had me
Right there beside you
you could've had me boy
you could've had me yeah
you could've had me
Right there beside you
A wife on loan
in a cafe in old El Paso
Next I go to
Seven Gates and
my sister's Bass Bonanza
And all along her Watchtower
the night horses and
the black mares
steady themselves for the outcome
for the strange days
upon us
What you didn't count on
was another Mother of
a Mother Revolution
Hmm... ironically relevant.
Ok, so what's really been up lately is that I'm getting excited, excited for life, for school to be over, for summer, for japan, for experiences and emotions and friends and enemies and all that shit. And I'm hoping it might last for a little bit, at least until the sun starts coming out a bit more. Which isn't to say that I'm in a state.
I think I'm looking forward to summer because it will be my first living downtown, and it will be a reprieve for some creative time. I may even finish some paintings... may. No promises.
That's all for now. More to come.
