heaven? what use is heaven

I don't get this, everytime it comes down to me having to study for some sort of big test I always cop out and just sit around. It's like... when it matters the most I just draw a blank in the motivation column and throw in the towel. I mean... I like Korean, I just don't like the class or the way it's taught. Oh well, I'm sure I'll squeeze by anyway.

This was my first Valentine's Day ever where I actually pondered the idea of being alone. It only lasted for about five minutes, mind, but I still felt like I was somehow letting myself down. Chalk another one up for Hallmark. It's not like I feel lonely especially? It was more of a just thinking about what I would be doing were I with someone... and I think it was mostly inspired by boredom.

My thoughts are so disorderly at the moment, I think it's mostly because I'm really tired and the Final Fantasy (owen pallett, not the video game) music in the background is disrupting me a bit. My theory is that there are two kinds of music, the kind that draws you in, and the kind that pours into you. And this is draw you in kind.

A movie everyone who is alive should see is 'What the F*** do we know?'. It's supposedly about quantum physics but it made me feel so much better about life in general. The same can sadly not be said for 'the constant gardener', which was also quite good but in a making you think about how fucked the world is kind of way.

Today's song of the night is cooling.