I can't find my beekeeper cd... which was supposed to be the medication I would use to give me a motive for this post. And it also kind of shakes what was in my mind to post straight out of it. Mostly I was going to talk about my tendency to burn bridges and do things in spite of people. But, now I'm too distressed over the potential loss of my cd. So I will instead say: I miss you, I love you, I secretly long for you... and that's all.